Question 13: good and evil

Briana Moss

Aug 14 2012

Question 13

            When I put on shades I feel invisible not in the sense that someone can’t see me but in the sense that they can’t see the emotion on my face. To me the eyes can tell stories and when u do not see the eyes you can see a person’s emotions. Like this guy who ride the train every morning with me and every time I look at him it seems like he’s watching me and sometimes he even smiles a little, it’s creepy. Then I wonder when I have my shades on do people think the same thing about me? Yes you use them to block the sun but they also can be used for a sense of security or style. When I’m on the train I usually put on my shade so people won’t bother me. When I wear them I feel secure. I think sunglass effect the way you feel a good pair can make you feel sexy or confident.

            In my life time I’ve had many of dreams some good some bad but two dreams that I still remember till this day I will tell one bad on good. One dream I had that I won’t forget was when I was about 10 years old I heard girls from a distance singing a son jumping rope, in my dream everything was white the house the side walk the girls dresses and so on. In the dream I was on this big sliver shinny bike at the end of the bike was a big sliver horn sparkling in the sunlight in the dream I felt as if someone was controlling me to keep going forward on the bike, people dressed in white look at me as I passed by at the end on the street was my mother her arm opened wide with a big smile on her face. In the dream I knew what was going to happen next I would run into her with the horn I tried to stop the bike but it just kept going my mother arms still opened wide with a smile on her face I ran into her the horn persing her stomach blood red blood splatter everywhere soon I saw nothing but red I won’t up with a scream. My mother was ok it was just a dream I don’t know why I had this dream I also don’t know how I couldn’t stop myself. After this dream for about a week I felt guilty of killing my mother even though it was just a dream. The next dream I had was around the same time in this dream I saw the white again but not the girls or the streets just whiteness when I look up I saw to arms come out to hold me I was not scared the arm picked me up and cradled me like a baby I knew there was a body connected to these arm but all I saw was the light the arm said nothing did nothing but I felt as if all my free worries and frustrations went away. I then fell into a deep sleep when I woke up in the morning I never felt so happy in my entire life I felt at peace with myself and with the world around me this happiness last for weeks. I’ve never been one to believe in good and evil but in this time of my life these dreams have changed the way I look at the world don’t know how or why all I know is it just did.