At one point in time there has been several times where I
would just helplessly fall for a guy just to get the heart broken in the end. “That’s
what you get. When you let your heart win” There were times where I would just
try to stay away from people, guys, because I didn’t want to get hurt again. I sometimes
didn’t know what was happening and when things would be okay, if there was even
an ‘okay. I would hold on to different
little things from the past, mostly hold on to a certain thought that maybe
just maybe that things would be okay and this guy would see me for who I really
was and accept me. Yet it hadn’t happen and just holding on to that thought it
made me near crazy and again and again the heart got the better of me and won. “I can’t trust myself” and at that time it was
true.
At that time I would think that there was no point in every
trying to find a person that I could call my own, or ever find someone to spend
this lifetime with, other than the people and relationships that I would create
in my fictions. But now there is the slight chance that I will not let the
heart out rule the head and I wouldn’t go into things blindly again. So I do
not know what the future holds but what I do know that this would make things much
better for me and I will fight before I fall. In a way I am currently fighting
the heart and making sure that the head is with it first before I let the heart
win again.
No comments:
Post a Comment